SHOW UP

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Dearly Beloved

It’s been a while—I apologize. Let me be vulnerable with you: consistency has been taking a toll on me lately, and I’m not just talking about posting here, but generally. Keeping up with posting, maintaining relationships, praying, studying… even eating feels like a hassle these days.

For someone who is going to be great, I realize I need serious discipline and structure. Not just to be consistent, but because it’s consistency that creates results, real, growing, lasting results.*

So… permit me to have this mini meltdown on you."

Right now, I know what I want, but my environment and circumstances seem to be working against me. And honestly? Trying to swim against the tide doesn’t give me that same dopamine rush as just… going with the flow.

To build discipline and consistency, I know I have to show up.

Showing up is the first step toward becoming the person of my dreams… but plot twist—there’s something that comes before showing up. *Hunger.*

Most people either aren’t hungry enough, or they’re so hungry that they fall into the wrong traps. The hunger?It’s a deep, howling need to be great—but through the right channels, in the right ways. That’s what fuels my showing up.

So yes—I’m starving for greatness. I will show up.

But another plot twist: *imposter syndrome*.

Am I even good enough to show up?

If I show up… will I be seen?

Will people give me the benefit of the doubt?

Will my work be considered? Will I ever be enough to impress them?

And slowly… You realize you’re in an identity crisis. Feeling shallow. Empty. Like you’ll never be enough."

This is a whole cycle, but recently I learnt about a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7 NKJV

[7] For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

The word sound mind here is the word "sōphronismos," which means a discipline that is from self-control. But the part that gets me is the part noting what God did not give and what he gave. What God gave is power,love and sound mind, what he did not give was Fear, so it means that God has no intention for us to have fear. Because what God wants us to have he gives, and we know that all that he gives is good, how do we know this ? James 1:17 NKJV

[17] Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning.

This is the template of what God has given and what we have received in Christ. So my question to myself then is "Why are you scared to show up?" Because all that I need to show up be disciplined and consistent has been given to me. But my mind still plays these tricks on me. Am I enough? Yes !!! Christ considered me enough to die for me

Can I do it? Yes, I can do it by my God.

So I arm myself with Scriptures like the following.

Psalms 18:29 NKJV

[29] For by You I can run against a troop, By my God I can leap over a wall.

Psalms 18:32-34 NKJV

[32] It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. [33] He makes my feet like the feet of deer, and sets me on my high places. [34] He teaches my hands to make war, so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

So I show up, for through me Christ shows off in my world

For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them. Ephesians 2:10 NKJV and I walk confidently, remembering always that it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.Philippians 2:13 NKJV